The Coming of 2011

What I had done for the past one year?

Broke 2 wine glasses and 3 glasses.
Cut my long hair which has been with me for ages. Back to my boy-cut hair style.
Transfer to a country that I never been before. Start building up my circle of friends over here.

Did those things that meaningless to the world. Bring any values to myself? No idea.

Getting older and older. My thinking is growing faster than my age. My pessimism, ignorant, arrogant is pouring out from my body. Being myself again.

Is that consider the best thing I had done so far?
Finally, I am willing to face myself? Dare to look into the mirror and start pondering about the life I have instead of being the ostrich bury his head into sand.

I am still on the journey searching for the answer for life.
Where I want to be?
What am I going to do?
When I want to settle down?
Who I want to be with?

God, show me the light, guide me to the right path.
A new year. A better one.

Love

Who is the one makes me cry? Makes me smile?
Who is the one can trigger my emotion effortlessly?
Who can make my eye got red within sentences?
It is still you.

I am someone who doesn’t show sadness, happiness in front of others.
But in front of you, my emotion is not in my hand but yours.
There is once I thought that no one can touch my heart anymore.
I was wrong until I met you.

After all this years, those memories are unforgettable and irreplaceable.
You will always be in my heart.

RIP 4E

My mum has a twin. My fourth auntie, 4E. She passed away yesterday 8pm at Elizabeth Hospital Singapore. Cancer. Her body arrive at Penang just now. My grandma has been crying since yesterday and not eating since her daughter passed away. Ah ma is 90 years old now. I am worry, we are worry, everyone is worry about her. My eldest auntie keep on asking her not to cry, try to eat something. Still, she is not listening. She said, this is my daughter, what you want me to do? How can I eat? My eldest auntie just keep silent.

I have a lot of aunties. My mum has 6 sisters. All of them are very close to each other. Anyone of them traveling to any countries, they will always make sure buy 5 souvenirs for each other. For example, when my mum came to SH, she have to buy 5 different bags in different colors for all her sisters. If not, some of them will feel unhappy and not fair and start complaining. Why she has your souvenir but I don't have? bla bla bla...=) And they are no longer young little girl. My eldest auntie already has grand daughter still she will be mad if my mum go oversea/traveling without telling her. I feel kinda frustrating sometimes by listening to their story. All the gossiping among each other, jealousy, noisiness and etc. Trust me, when all the aunties are gather under one roof, you won't have a chance to speak at all cause they are simply too noisy.

On the other hand....they are sweet. Just sweet. Regardless all the gossiping, they are very close to each other. They are old still they tie strong to each other. My eldest aunt at Sg, 2nd aunt at Kedah, 4th aunt used to be at US, 5th auntie at KL, youngest aunt and my mum at Pg. They are far apart but the distant between them never stop them from loving each other. They always put in all the effort they can to keep each other update.

She is my mum's twin. Needless to say, she is the closest to my mum among all the sisters. And I knew that my 4E always treat my mum better compare to any other auntie. Years ago, my mum's best friend passed away. Whenever mention about that friend, my mum's eye just got watery even after years. And this time, this is her closest sister.

RIP, 4E.
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People go, people come.
This is a bit weird to put it in the same post however I just got the news today. My friend who married during the summer, his wife just got pregnant. Human life cycle.

Wave good bye to the old soul, welcome new life to this world.